“We can never show the love of Christ until we understand the love of Christ. And we can never understand the love of Christ until we understand His death. And we can never understand the death of Christ until we understand why He died. And we can never understand why He died until we understand His holiness and our sin.” Page 53
My struggle is somewhere in that quote. The reason I don’t love like I ought is included in one of those phrases. I don’t understand something. I may know it and be able to state it, but some truth there has not penetrated into my soul. It has not gripped my heart so that I live it. Using the words of Scripture, some part of the word of Christ is not dwelling richly in my heart. (Colossians 3:16)
My particular problem right now is the struggle to love those who are difficult. Recently I read an article by Tim Lane about this very topic. Looking at the quote above from Stetzer and Nation, I think my struggle is that I don’t understand/comprehend my own sinfulness so that I treasure His love for me. See, I look at my sin as minimal and therefore I refuse to see myself as the difficult person Jesus loves. If I can truly see things this way and live out of that, I will be able to be patient and loving to all the difficult people in my life. Not that it will be easy, mind you. It will be hard because I am hard headed and change always takes time to occur, but I will be able to fight that battle when I see Jesus loving sinful, difficult me.
What this means is that my struggle to perfectly love others stems from an incomplete acceptance of the gospel. I believe the gospel. I know it and could give it to others. I even give the right answers when talking to my “Christian” friends. But I am failing to live it out and that means the gospel is on some level just a statement I claim. It is hard, maybe impossible, to clearly see how Jesus loves me every day and still refuse to love others that same way.